Growing up

Back when you were a child

Things seemed all possible

They were indeed possible when you closed your eyes

They both were holding hands and smiling at each other

Things were possible, my friend!

Hugs and love and someone who could be there for you

You just needed that

Someone who could understand who you were

A solitaire soul

A thousand of thoughts

An innocent smile

Growing up went faster than you expected

So many decisions to be made

A solitaire soul embracing life

You just want to run away and hide in this wonderful world

Never coming back home

There is no home to go back to

Home is just wherever you go

Home is within your heart

It’s so hard to grow up

Teenage jeans don’t fit anymore

Shadows of wrinkles invading your face

You’re happy, no regrets!

But how hard is to grow up and pretend you are an adult

An adult who knows exactly how to reach the top mountain

Decisions, decisions

Forgiveness, forgiveness

Hiding in this beautiful world

Just a break from this madness

And a chai tea will do...

No regrets!

The day I met you

Millions of people around

A chaotic stream of voices awaiting something to begin

Everyday thoughts coming and going like fireworks

Nothing to be worried about

Youth in my veins, passion awaiting

Deep silence reigned

Peace took my heart over

Right time, right place

Who would have thought?

I would have run to your arms just there, but got immobilized

Feeling something bigger than this world was about to begin

You, stepping into the greatest love ever known

Me, realizing that I would never forget you

The day I met you I understood life didn’t have any sense without you

The day I met you I started to breathe

The day I met you I smiled again

The day I met you love songs were played in my heart

Sunshine, sunshine, sunshine reigned

From all experiences, I will never forget the day I met you

Will you?

Little things count a mountain

The little things that make me happy are the following:

- Chatting with a good friend. I don’t care about the topic, but they joy that brings being with this other person who I know cares about me.

- Dancing like a crazy person and feeling the music is burning my body…that much that I don’t have any other choice that freeing myself.

- Eating chocolate when I feel down

-Going to the cinema…I love watching films in foreign languages, no subtitles.

- Listening to music. Now I’m going through another stage in my life and I love listening to music that I would not normally listen to. Bad music doesn’t count. Yeah, there is bad music…music without soul.

- Writing poems when I feel extremely sad or happy. No drugs used…I don’t need them to see colors in the sky.

- Singing songs I love…I actually wish I could really sing well. I’m starting to like Portuguese, so I love singing in Portuguese.

- Leading other people. I like when I’m the boss…a nice boss

- Walking…walking…walking…and chatting would be perfect.

- When somebody who doesn’t usually express his feelings tells me he/she cares about me.

- Being with a big group of people who love me.

- Giving suggestions or advice to people who need it.

- Taking my backpack and traveling with somebody else no matter where.

- Playing Foosball…When I score, there is nothing better than that feeling. I’m actually good at this sport. Hold on, is this a sport?

- Reading a good book…the kind that makes me cry or laugh…or make me do things I would have never thought of and the ones that make me forget about time

- Teasing people I love. I like making them laugh.

- When people tell me about their cultures and the things they like to do in their countries.

- When a man realizes I’m smarter than him…lol lol ,excuse me, as smart as him.

- Attending Holy Thursday mass. The best mass of the year.

- When I get letters, real ones! I love the 30 seconds before opening the letter. It’s like I’m about to explode of happiness.

- Going to Yanacachi…feeling scared, but excited at the same time.

- Eating a good burger with French fries…NO McDonald’s or Burger King

- When I feel I’m free and there is nothing I have to do for the next day.

- Being in love…really in love…

- Love surprises…good ones, of course!

- Simplicity...just that!

Jesse

Smiles, laughter, freedom

You were all that to me

Speed, craziness, plain happiness

You were all that to me

Understanding, love, friendship

You were all that to me

My heart broke when I understood that I will never hear your voice again

My heart broke because I couldn’t say bye

Paddling in a river

You cheering me up, so I could make it to the shore

You were more than a friend

You were laughter and love

When you left…the sky poured sorrow over me

But I know you are happy now

You are with your love now

Thanks for so much joy!

Thanks for being part of my life!

You are not here with me now, but I know you are somehow

You are in those simple things that move me every day

You are in those crazy moments that I ache to have

I love you…I will always love you

My crazy, authentic friend!

In memoriam of Jesse Medina, a true dear friend.

Silence

Nothing is left, but silence

The battle is over

Silence and me!

Against a wall of memories

My last hope was crushed

And silence remains

I can’t hear the wind making autumn leaves dance

I can’t hear your voice or even remember your face

Not long time ago silence was not an option

Not long time ago your love was real

And now silence remains

And nothing is left

A broken dream, a broken heart

Keep walking

Even though there is nothing to be heard

Keep walking

And maybe someday you will be able to hear a bird singing at your window

And maybe someday you will be able to hear somebody else’s heart beat

Against a wall the past ended

But present and future are there!

Silence reigns now, but it won’t last forever

A day will come when silence won’t be an option anymore!

Stop!

Stop the nonsense of lies

Stop the stream of wants that are not good for us

Let’s stay away from those who just make us feel less

Let’s stand up and let the world know that “enough is enough”

Let’s stop the dance of desires that do not make us happy

Let’s liberate ourselves and for once feel we deserve more!

We, at least, deserve to be truly loved!

For love does exist

A real, pure love!

Lies stay away, bad intentions stay away!

Let’s be also merciful because those who make us feel blue are in fact empty

They are just empty vessels that can’t pour anything good on us

Stop the nonsense of hurting

Stop it and liberate yourself!

For you truly deserve to be truly and madly loved!

Born to be Free

Wild yellow flowers all around me

Hearing a song the wind gently whispers in my ear

I keep walking and breathing

Nothing makes me sad

Simple things surprise me

Nothing tames my wild heart

Hearing a bird sing, seeing trees dance, listening to your voice is all I need

Nothing stops me from loving my freedom

It’s all inside me!

It’s all inside me!

I was born to be free

I was born to love life

I was born to see the world!