Amour, amour, amour

L'amour! C'est quoi l'amour???

Je me demande...

Est-ce que l'amour est parti?

Est-ce que l'amour est dans le miroir?

Est-ce que l'amour est perdu?

L'amour! C'est quoi l'amour?

Les petites messages

Les petites mensonges

Le verbiage...

Les yeux fermés

Le silence?

Je me demande pourquoi on devrait le trouver

Est-ce que l'amour est perdu?

Est'ce que l'amour nous a demandé qu'on y aille à la guerre pour le trouver

L'amour! C'est quoi l'amour?

Je reflechis...

J'arrête...

Parce que en écoutant ce que l'amour veut vraiment dire

Je peux finalement le comprendre

L'amour! Je sais!

L'amour est déjà là!

Breathe, breathe, breathe!

Breathe, breathe, breathe

You can do this! You can do this!

Grandma, Great-grandma I'm calling you

Breathe, breathe, breathe

I'm breakable! I know this now

Come to me and assuage this excruciating pain

Grandma, Great-grandma you are with me

You tell me, "breathe, breathe, breathe"

I can't let the pain control my spirit

I can't let the pain take over my mind

Breathe, breathe, breathe

I'm lying on the ground, but I'm still here

A thousands of thoughts crossing my head

and I just keep telling myself, "breathe, breathe, breathe"

The adrenaline keeps me from screaming out of pain

I'm breakable! I know this now

Needles and more needles

I can't feel them anymore

A long trip ahead

Hours and hours and I'm still here feeling this biting pain

Hours and hours and I must stay strong

Needles and needles

Medicine and medicine, but I'm still in dreadful pain

Thousands of thoughts in my mind

Will I make it on time?

Will I walk along a heavenly beach again?

Will I climb a Hawaiian mountain again?

Will I keep exploring this magical world?

Breathe, breathe, breathe

The pain is so harrowing that for a second I see myself dying

I close my eyes and hear these words, "You can't die. You're eternal."

I'm breakable and I know this now

I could die and I'm grateful for my life

I could die now and I don't regret anything

I could die, but my spirit will never die

Breathe, breathe, breathe

I close my eyes and I feel my body like a ghost

My body wanting to heal itself

What a powerful thought!

I'm perfect! My body is perfect!

Breathe, breathe, breathe

My body is breakable, but my spirit is unconquerable!

Photograph by Engin Akyurt

Bolivia

Nayax sutimax munta,

qullunakamax, jawiranakamax,

ch’umimax, pampamax.

Nayax wali imantatamax munta.

ch’uxña willjtamax.

wawa phaxsimax.

Waynanakax jumalayku jachapxta,

nayax jumalayku jachata.

Nayax nayrapachamax munta,

ch’axwanakax, amuyunakamax.

Uñt’smawa, uñt’istawa.

Jach’a markajax,

nayax jumar munta.

(Traducción Español)

Amo tu nombre,

tus montañas, tus ríos,

tu selva, tu llano.

Amo demasiado tu verdad,

tu verde amanecer,

tu luna nueva.

Los jóvenes lloran por ti,

Yo lloro por ti.

Amo demasiado tu pasado,

amo tus luchas, amo tus ideas.

Te conozco, me conoces.

Mi gran tierra,

Te amo a ti.

(English Translation)

I love your name,

your mountains, your rivers,

your jungle, your valleys.

I deeply love your truth,

your green dawn,

your new moon.

Youth cry for you,

I cry for you.

I deeply love your past,

I love your struggle, I love your ideas.

I know you, you know me.

My glorious land,

I love YOU.

Unforgettable

I hear "Unforgettable"

and my heart starts to dance

I dance with you in my mind

I dance with you and I can see your soul

You loved me so much!

I loved you even more than that!

and this is why our story will remain forever unforgettable

You fled...because you knew you would never ever leave me

but I will be "Unforgettable" to you

and here I keep dancing waiting for you

Viens-ici! et embrasse moi!

tu sais que tu m'aimes

tu sais que je te manque énormément!

Viens-ici, parce que moi...j'ai déjà oublié tout le doleur

parce qu'on est "unforgettable"!

Dedicated to Nat King Cole.

Prince Not Charming

Someone who would never get tired of hearing my crazy ideas

Someone who would always be there when I need him

Someone whose tiny car would take us wherever we want

Someone who would be a book lover

Someone who would talk politics, music, and would appreciate my crazy taste in art

Someone who would feel we´re making magic together

While we try to communicate

So much to give, so much to say,

Don’t tell me what ending to write

This is me in the writing

This is me in every single word

I’m not afraid of being who I am

I’m not afraid of saying what I believe in even if that hurts

Because life is like that…you must hear nice and awful stuff

Nothing is like in the old love stories you once have read

Or maybe it is, once you´ve accepted who you are

Someone who won´t get tired of dancing

Someone who won´t give up

Someone who would commit

Not to me, but to his feelings

Someone who won´t deny who he is

Someone who won´t hide his flows, but learn from them

A story I wanna read again and again

A story of two

A story of us

That’s the “prince not charming” I want

Losing My Voice

Woke up and no word could come out

My brain bombarded by thoughts

Good thoughts, bad thoughts, ugly thoughts

Good thoughts like I´m alive

Bad thoughts like I hate feeling this emptiness

Ugly thoughts like I wish I had never fallen into this void

Woke up and no word could come out

Felt helpless and so weak

Felt like nothing

A “nothing” person

A “nothing” woman

A nothing that can´t be loved

A nothing that was tossed when less expected

Woke up and no word could come out

And a “larme” rolled over my face

A “larme” then multiplied into an ocean

A gloomy hurricane of emotions trapped me

Woke up and no word could come out

Not that word that I used to say, “babe”

Not those words that I used to say, “I love you”

Woke up and no word could come out

Just silence and weakness

And then out of nowhere

Here I am with no voice, but with hope

Here I am with no voice, but immensely stronger

Here I am a “nothing” with no voice, but climbing “Everest” little by little

Yes, you are gone, but I´m still here

Yes, I have no voice, but I´m still me

Got my way lost, but I´m finding it back somehow

Woke up and no word could come out

But here I am writing this poem not to you, but to me!

Here I am rediscovering, reinventing, redefining who I am

Here I am with no voice, but with a mighty heart

Losing my voice, losing you…how long can this last?

Not much because this is me who we´re talking about!

A nothing who is something

A nothing who is something without you

Losing my voice, losing you…how hard could it be?

Yes, I loved you! But it is not all about you anymore!

Here I am and I want to sing!

Here I am and I´m ready to rise and show you that you never defined me

Here I am…sorry! Not to show you anything, but to show me the beautiful “nothing” I am

LOSING MY VOICE WON´T LAST FOREVER!

Disillusionment

A borrowed heart

A borrowed feeling

We danced for a while

Felt my world was turned upside down

Felt I couldn’t feel happier

Disillusionment

Woke one day and everything was gone

Your love, your smile

Your voice stopped making those groovy sounds

Your words stopped being written and sent to my heart

The dance stopped and I wasn’t prepared

A borrowed heart

Are you where you’re supposed to be?

Thought we belonged together

Thought we would dance forever

Thought we would go to Las Vegas and love each other until the end

Disillusionment

Didn’t I get the message right?

I laughed at that!

Because you knew how much I loved you!

You knew it, but the game was on

A borrowed heart

A borrowed feeling

And now you’re all cozy in her arms…

Disillusionment

But I did learn

Learned to never give my heart to the wrong person

Our dance is over

Photos and a ghost remain

Hope I can forget just that easily

Wish I were all cozy in someone else’s arms

Loving and being loved

You forgot everything so quickly

But I’m fine…you just made me stronger!