Friday, August 12, 2016
Woke up and no word could come out My brain bombarded by thoughts Good thoughts, bad thoughts, ugly thoughts Good thoughts like I´m alive Bad thoughts like I hate feeling this emptiness Ugly thoughts like I wish I had never fell into this void Woke up and no word could come out Felt helpless and so weak Felt like nothing A “nothing” person A “nothing” woman A nothing that can´t be loved A nothing that was tossed when less expected Woke up and no word could come out And a “larme” rolled over my face A “larme” then multiplied into an ocean A gloomy hurricane of emotions trapped me Woke up and no word could come out Not that word that I used to say, “babe” Not those words that I used to say, “I love you” Woke up and no word could come out Just silence and weakness And then out of nowhere Here I am with no voice, but with hope Here I am with no voice, but immensely stronger Here I am a “nothing” with no voice, but climbing “Everest” little by little Yes, you are gone, but I´m still here Yes, I have no voice, but I´m still me Got my way lost, but I´m finding it back somehow Woke up and no word could come out But here I am writing this poem not to you, but to me! Here I am rediscovering, reinventing, redefining who I am Here I am with no voice, with a mighty heart Losing my voice, losing you…how long can this last? Not much because this is me who we´re talking about! A nothing who is something A nothing who is something without you Losing my voice, losing you…how hard could it be? Yes, I loved you! But it is not all about you anymore! Here I am and I want to sing! Here I am and I´m ready to rise and show you that you never defined me Here I am…sorry! Not to show you anything, but to show me the beautiful “nothing” I am LOSING MY VOICE WON´T LAST FOREVER!
Wednesday, April 6, 2016
A borrowed heart A borrowed feeling We danced for a while Felt my world was turned upside down Felt I couldn’t feel happier Disillusionment Woke one day and everything was gone Your love, your smile Your voice stopped making those groovy sounds Your words stopped being written and sent to my heart The dance stopped and I wasn’t prepared A borrowed heart Are you were you’re supposed to be? Thought we belonged together Thought we would dance forever Thought we would go to Las Vegas and love each other until the end Disillusionment Didn’t I get the message right? I laughed at that! Because you knew how much I loved you! You knew it, but the game was on A borrowed heart A borrowed feeling And now you’re all cozy in her arms… Disillusionment But I did learn Learned to never give my heart to the wrong person Our dance is over Photos and a ghost remain Hope I can forget just that easily Wish I were all cozy in someone else’s arms Loving and being loved You forgot everything so quickly But I’m fine…you just made me stronger!
Saturday, March 26, 2016
Today my world collapsed You and her in front of me How couldn´t I see it before?
Why was I so blind? All the photos that were never posted All the secrets Now everything makes sense What a player! I can´t believe my eyes Yes, you! You, such a liar! Manipulating me Making me cry a river All I had for you was love And you tore everything apart You took my heart and broke it with pleasure What did I ever do to you to deserve that? The only thing I did was to love you What a fool! Thought you felt the same All the secrets All the photos that were never posted Are now nothing Burnt Never seen You crashed my last hope And your real face was revealed An ugly face An ugly look What did I ever do to you to deserve that? Just hope to never see you again Just hope you´ll never hurt anyone the way you hurt me All the secrets All the photos that were never posted Are now gone
Saturday, March 5, 2016
No one would understand, but This is the story of a dog called Brian He was a puppy, a cute puppy, so small that he could fit in one´s hand There he was all tied up with a rope, all alone in a balcony The owners? A family who didn´t like him! Actually a family who preferred the poodle they had Life is so wonderful and surprising! Mom was the one who rescued him Yeah! The family said yes! You can take him! Brian, a cute puppy, was so scared, but mom´s love saved him Brian ran and ran like a rabbit Brian jumped and jumped like this was heaven Brian looked at me and I knew things would be just fine We traveled together... So many adventures, happy moments, sad moments I missed you when I was not there with you You missed me because I was not there with you We danced together, we cried together You protected mom and you made her happy What else in the world would I ask for! You are one of the most precious gifts this life has given me Little puppy with a collar that could fit a mouse Little puppy that grew old but still had energy to play with me Little puppy you understood how I felt when life struck me You have no idea how much I love you and miss you! But I know one day we´ll be together again And yeah…we´ll dance and play like we used to do And yeah…you will run and run like a rabbit And yeah…I will see your wolflike-shadow again! Little puppy! Thanks so much for understanding us! I know you´ll always be here with us! My heart is broken now, but I can´t be more thankful for having found you in this crazy world Love you, Brian!
Saturday, October 24, 2015
Please love me like I do Please don´t give up on us Tears just pour out of my soul I can´t control this feeling It´s bigger than me and my brains Please make love to me Please dance with me Tears just cover my face I wish I didn´t feel the way I feel now It was an unexpected feeling I should have walked away I should have slapped you when you kissed me the first time I should have done that and run away before it was too late But now there is no way out I´ve fallen in this trap called love once again Wish I can take my heart and just tear it apart Wish I could stop crying and thinking what I did wrong I just showered you with kisses and sweetness I just wanted to make you happy And now this is how it all ends Wish I could be you…wish I could control my feelings and decide not to care anymore Wish I could go back in time and said “no” My heart wouldn´t be broken But there is more than you think I´m not like anyone else! And you´ll see I´m strong enough to deal with the pain…maybe not today, but tomorrow you´ll see I will just let my tears be free, just for today I will just sink into this pain I will remember the way you kissed me I will remember the way we met But just for today because tomorrow…I´ll wake up all brand new Because I was being myself Because it was not a game for me I risked it and now I´ll put my heart together and keep going It would have been one of the most amazing stories! It would have been a beautiful dance, you and me! But it´s OK I´ll keep going…I´ll keep walking… and one day I will love again!
Sunday, September 6, 2015
It’s all within you! Looking for love? Looking for happiness? Looking for peace? You could walk the world a thousand times You could meet all kinds of people You could climb the highest mountain You could swim the largest ocean You could fall in love But there is no need It’s all within you! All answers lie within you Joy, love, and freedom lie right there Stop for a minute and understand this… It´s all within you!
Monday, May 18, 2015
Hey you! Cheer up! Put a smile on your face! Because you only have one chance to live Because life will go away in a blink Enjoy every minute, every hour, and every day And if everything seems to get dark, Close your eyes and think of a beautiful memory Don´t be afraid because life is there for you Take a walk! Listen to your heart! Hear your soul breathing! Take a break and enjoy this moment! Because it will never come back Be grateful for all the beautiful moments, but also for all the struggles and mistakes Don’t worry, be happy! Life is a lit candle…enjoy it before the light is gone Sing, dance, dream, write, read, and fall in love with your life Don’t worry, be happy! Because everything will be just fine (Thanks Bobby McFerrin for the song that makes me feel there is nothing that can knock me down!)