Friday, August 12, 2016
Losing My Voice
Woke up and no word could come out My brain bombarded by thoughts Good thoughts, bad thoughts, ugly thoughts Good thoughts like I´m alive Bad thoughts like I hate feeling this emptiness Ugly thoughts like I wish I had never fell into this void Woke up and no word could come out Felt helpless and so weak Felt like nothing A “nothing” person A “nothing” woman A nothing that can´t be loved A nothing that was tossed when less expected Woke up and no word could come out And a “larme” rolled over my face A “larme” then multiplied into an ocean A gloomy hurricane of emotions trapped me Woke up and no word could come out Not that word that I used to say, “babe” Not those words that I used to say, “I love you” Woke up and no word could come out Just silence and weakness And then out of nowhere Here I am with no voice, but with hope Here I am with no voice, but immensely stronger Here I am a “nothing” with no voice, but climbing “Everest” little by little Yes, you are gone, but I´m still here Yes, I have no voice, but I´m still me Got my way lost, but I´m finding it back somehow Woke up and no word could come out But here I am writing this poem not to you, but to me! Here I am rediscovering, reinventing, redefining who I am Here I am with no voice, with a mighty heart Losing my voice, losing you…how long can this last? Not much because this is me who we´re talking about! A nothing who is something A nothing who is something without you Losing my voice, losing you…how hard could it be? Yes, I loved you! But it is not all about you anymore! Here I am and I want to sing! Here I am and I´m ready to rise and show you that you never defined me Here I am…sorry! Not to show you anything, but to show me the beautiful “nothing” I am LOSING MY VOICE WON´T LAST FOREVER!